Victory over me

2011-08-15T21:46:00.000+07:00

Sorry

Its all my fault

I shouldn't have done that

I must eradicate my mistakes

I am a mistake

Untitled.... or is it?

2011-07-22T21:13:00.000+07:00

Ah, Finally, I can post here again. Its been a few months since I've been here. Usually I'm on Tumblr now, but I don't go there as much nowadays. It seems my life has changed. We've noticed that I don' play World of Warcraft as much as I used to. I have no Idea why. I've also noticed that I got significantly wider and fatter, well, I've been in Africa (SOUTH Africa) whose food portions are... not as small as Indo portions. Therefore I'm fat, and I burp a lot. Its weird that I'm fat due to excess food in my intestines. I haven't shat for three days now and its killing me, both literally and figuratively. Schools just around the corner and I'm flabbier than ever. I need to start dieting. I now officially hate my life once again

Amnesiac Reprogramming

2011-03-29T22:55:00.000+07:00

I miss blogging in Blogger, but when I come back I remember why I left. I'm currently blogging in dyxan.tumblr.com a private blog where I share stuff. I'm not telling the password here, because people would try and open it. I'll make it into my personal blogger where no one can disturb me on the inner reaches of the Internet. my public tumblr account is timelostprotodude.tumblr.com and the password is my favorite number. There is a link leading from the dashboard all the way to Dyxan, there I keep my personal thoughts to myself. There is no possible way to know my passwords unless I search for the insignia, MY insignia.

If I ever lose my memories in some way, I would need to call on Dyxan to help me regain it, I'm sure he'll help me return the pieces of my memories back together

Hibernation end

2011-03-29T22:01:00.000+07:00

Its been a while since I posted here. I'm having seizures as usual, and apparently, they're not going so well. A lot, and I mean A LOT of things have happened during the past few months. I stopped blogging here since I made a tumblr account. Tumblr is like THAT place in THAT website, only lighter and much, much more brighter. I've made 7 other characters in WoW and apparently I'm losing my mind. Eko says its a condition but not dementia that whatever I think of will happen, will happen to my mind. Its pretty cool when you come to think about it. Apparently its full of negativity of death, dying, failing, and that sorta stuff. Its like a personal law of attraction. I just read this post on Tumblr: "To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong." I fear being wrong too much apparently

Ibu Mona Died yesterday, though I have never met her, I pray that she will be happy no matter where she is. Nearly all the teachers were in the funeral home to say one last good bye to her. its a sad moment of time in SPH, probably one of the lowest times we can get. Its a sad, sad time, Cha Cha, a preschooler in our school, died of tumor (i think), Ibu Mona, Died of Cancer. Truly a sad time, and Pak Edward's nasopharynx is starting to act up to the point that he is half blind.

Since nobody cares about my condition and think its a hoax, I should remind myself when will I die. 19-05-13 the moment IT happens, I die. That is my goal date. And since nobody will read my blog I'll just say things in a much more casual manner; I HATE MYSELF, I HATE MY LIFE, I HATE MY BODY, I HATE MY MIND. I WISH I WAS NEVER SENT HERE. I REGRET LIVING.

MOVED

2011-03-15T13:35:00.000+07:00

To tumblr

timelostprotodude.tumblr.com

Holy fucking shit

2011-01-18T14:00:00.000+07:00

Oh shit, i;m late to hand in stuff

its a year

2011-01-10T22:48:00.000+07:00

So its been a year since I last blogged, so i'll make this one my resolute:

I wan't to finish gr. 11 with flying marks

spend less time on the internet

Learn Japanese/do SAT

Keep my temper down

Somehow be able to eradicate the existence of dark matter within my mind

and finally: Be one step closer to ruling the world

2010-12-08T23:37:00.001+07:00

OK, So I updated MAXIM today, made a brand new prologue and I'm beat....

Orb #==>User==>Wish Granted
Orb 1==Joe Skyflare==>Zero ==Ability to copy talents, strengths and powers, but copies waeknesses with the strengths
Orb 2==>Potemkin==> Charge == Ability to 'charge up' abilities
Orb 3==>Arc Handell==>Spacial Distortion + Time control<==This guy is Godly, Last Boss
Orb 4==>Maximilian==>Energy Control + Divine Minutes<==Main character
Orb 5==>Gillian==> Flora Fauna= Speaks to animals.... and plants.... and controls them
Orb 6==>Velys Handell==> Meld== Daughter of Arc, her ability is to 'meld' with objects, making her the best scout ever
Orb 7==> Death warrior Hardy Gardea==>Sword mastery== Summons sharp objects, shoots them too like a machine gun
Orb 8==>Night knight Harley Gardea==> Shade == Raises his shadow that fights with him
Orb 9==>Rasputin==> Will of the dead == Turns himself into strength mode, speed mode,Demon Mode, etc.
Orb 10==>Rozalina==> Pied Piper == Illusions via sound, hear her voice and you're in her illusion already

Now I'm planning to make the final epitaph, the Void of Fate (VOF). The VOF is the void of the realm in between realms. It acts exactly like the EOFs EXCEPT (!!!) its raw, pure darkness. the user will be Maxim's brother Kanka. His power will be the exact OPPOSITE of Maxim. It will be Nega control (the control of the negative side of everything) and Dark Times (Reverse of Divine minutes, twice as long not as strong). Since there is only one VOF in existence, it doesn't disappear after the so-called tournament is finished, instead, it jumps to the next user since it has no way back to the void. It will be destroyed by Maxim at the end of the story, along with Kanka (sadly)

Forever alone

2010-12-08T21:43:00.001+07:00

So its a warm wednesday night, AND THERES A FUCKING RAT IN MY ROOM!!!!!

Dunno if its out yet or not......

My aid opened up the windows so now its probably gone.... AND THERES ABOUT 5 FUCKING MOSQUITOES IN MY ROOM!!!!

Lemme guess, a room full of mosquitoes and around a lot of bites.... Killing commence in 5....4....3....2....1.....

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Frankenstein is an awesome book, it was written in the Romantic period by Mary Shelly. Its supposed to be a horror novel, but i can't see why its so scary...
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...probably our modern preferences are much, uh.... harder to scare away.

ONwards, Maxim's story hasn't been updated in weeks, I'm planning to remake the Prologue and combine the current prologue with chapter 1 to lengthen it twofold. I'll do that during
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Saturday or Sunday if I get the time. I'm also planning to put in every single one of my poems in my book. tell them as Ancient manuscripts then camouflage them under a sea of letters.Poems such as Aria of Archadia and Arcberus would Fit well, others, um..... not so much.

Today I have a revelation, a pretty late one too, NOBODY reads VOM EVER!!!! I kinda like it that way, that way I can spill out anything i want... Like the girl i like, or my deepest.... darkest secrets.

Lets try to see if anyone wans to blackmail me for writing this: I think I'm in love with a girl named Irene. YUP, I said it, and I'm proud of it. I''d like to see if anyone knows who I like from my followers. I could bet my own life that they wont read this post.... Exactly why I'm proud of this blog is that NOBODY READS IT~!

Stigma of illusions

2010-12-06T12:09:00.001+07:00

Last night I dreamed of selling my soul, which isn't all that bad since my wish giver was a Yandere girl around 19-20 year old. it was the best dream i've had in MONTHS!!!! I still remember it like it was yesterday, which it was. My Wish giver is an evil warlord who grants wishes in turn of their form. I wished for something and got a bat-like creature with 3 eyes for a form. I was discontent, so I said: "How bout this, my soul for a form I want." Then I woke up........ Shit.......

I woke up with a stigma on my finger, probably from the pact in the dream. DEFINITELY GOING IN MAXIM'S STORY, lol.

Its been a pretty while since I actually blogged here. Dunno what else to write about but my lucid dream. I'm still in love with that person, and i'm starting to become nocturnal......

EE is coming up and I'm thinking of doing it on human blood. I can imagine the essay already. The effects of food on human blood. or maybe the effects of drugs., wait WHAT!? NO. NOT DRUGS. I'll need test subjects thats for sure, since my blood is probably the most resilient blood that I know, but i should use my own for comparison to other blood types.... I'm thinking of getting Bombay blood type if I can, but that seems improbable.

Sleepy, sleepy, sleepy as hell. I slept at eight last night and I still feel sleepy, what the hell is wrong with me!? I tried sleeping earlier but apparently i'm still sleepy.

thats all for now, gotta eat and go to lunch

2010-12-02T23:53:00.000+07:00

its the 3rd day of December, finally, the last month of the year...

As of this day, there are 68 days towards the next retreat, and 60 to my birthday

thats probably all for tonight

I'll be continuing Maxim this sunday

Ages

2010-11-23T13:14:00.002+07:00

Its been quite a while since I blogged, so I'm blogging after the exams

Threeway byway

2010-11-11T23:30:00.000+07:00

So its been a while since I blogged here. Its nearly midnight here where I am and i'm sleepy as hell. Apparently i haven't found a science experiment for tomorrow. So screwed I am

I've been playing assassins creed 2 for a while now, its a pretty fun game, and I'm enjoying it a lot. I've just gathered the pieces for the 'armor of Altair' the strongest armor in the game.

I have to make a confession here, I think I'm in love with a girl named I***e. Not telling her last name though, If only I could gather up enough courage to tell her so.....

ASSCREED LOLZORZCOPTERSKATES, Random Title Generator works!!!1

2010-11-07T22:46:00.000+07:00

Today I made chapter 1 of Project Destiny I'm gonna explain about Paradoks,

Paradocks is a pocket of oblivion in between space and time. If space and time is seen as a filmstrip, Paradocks is the blank void in between the scenes. Thats the easiest way I could explain it

It is done

2010-11-03T01:53:00.003+07:00

FInally BI is done

Ninasviel is back, and everything turned out better that I expected

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Epitaph of Fate is an Arcanium element orb that glows a bright yellow created by the upper Gods, distributed by the 10 messengers to different people regardless of age, status, and race. They serve the purpose of a portable 'wishing star,' though many rather exploit its power to gain earthly riches, eternal life, powers etc. Maxim is just lucky that he receives two due his Epitaph went into Mitosis Mode that only happens once every thousand years, the distribution of the EOF itself only happens once every 100 years, therefore Maxim is not the first to be lucky. EOFs can undergo Artificial Mitosis Mode by being supercharged by a large hadron collider, the exact thing that the main antagonist did to his EOF. EOF Wishes are planned as follows:

Orb #==>User==>Wish Granted<==Comment
Orb 1==Joe Skyflare==>Zero ==Ability to copy talents, strengths and powers, but copies waeknesses with the strengths
Orb 2==>Potemkin==> Charge == Ability to 'charge up' abilities
Orb 3==>Arc Handell==>Spacial Distortion + Time control<==This guy is Godly, Last Boss
Orb 4==>Maximilian==>Energy Control + Divine Minutes<==Main character
Orb 5==>Gillian==> Flora Fauna= Speaks to animals.... and plants.... and controls them
Orb 6==>Velys==> Meld== Daughter of Arc, her ability is to 'meld' with objects, making her the best scout ever
Orb 7==> Death warrior Hardy Gardea==>Sword mastery== Summons sharp objects, shoots them too like a machine gun
Orb 8==>Night knight Harley Gardea==> Shade == Raises his shadow that fights with him
Orb 9==>Rasputin==> Will of the dead == Turns himself into strength mode, speed mode,Demon Mode, etc.
Orb 10==>Rozalina==> Pied Piper == Illusions via sound, hear her voice and you're in her illusion already

Ichina Companovna HP

2010-11-01T21:00:00.001+07:00

Dunno what to write about today, i pretty much wrote a 5 paragraph introduction to the book i'm writing, Destiny's Branch.

Its not fanfiction, it's totally crafted by yours truly.... I don't make fanficts, they stink

My book is gonna be pretty short but my plan is to write out the whole book first, then when I get a go ahead from my peers, I'm gonna improve it and lengthen it.

This week's part is the Prelude, or the introduction to the story, the introduction to the character Maxim or Max. I chose this name because firstly, I suck at male names, so I wen't over to Mr. Google, and typed in 'Russian names' and found Maxim somewhere in the bottom of the first page

Maxim is a shorter version of Maximus, which itself is close to MAXIMUM (Powerthirst voice). Thats why i chose the name,

Yes I do realize that an Indonesian Porn company runs under the same name, I'll probably change his name later on in the story.
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Maxim's race is undefined, but later on in the story he finds out he is a descendant of an Archadian and an offshoot of the Blood-seekers. He gains an Epitaphs of Fate and therefore the ability to make a wish come true.

Ironically, he uses none to directly become God (explained later on near the end that he must earn Godly status and not wish it to get its full benefits). So he wishes his first for the power to control Energy and his second to temporarily become 'God for a few minutes' (lit. Minutes of Divinity) near the end of the story.

Tomorrow I'll be explaining about the Epitaphs of Fate

Posting in Ichina today

2010-10-31T23:35:00.001+07:00

Just for a side note, Ichina is HiNa, Ninasviel is NiNa

NiNa will be coming home around tuesday, damn... just around the corner of a homework due, and it just had to be BI poem analysis, DAMN DAMN DAMN

i Should be reading Frankenstein by now, but instead, i'm blogging....

So I just had a 4 hour sleep today, and it was mighty fine. IT WAS REFRESHING to sleep during daylight. I should do it more

Maybe I am going Hybernation mode, since i seem to be sleepy now even after the long nap i had this afternoon....

Just a few more minutes to the Day of the Dead, woohoo, my day!!!!

Ichina is actually healthier today, and now is charging like usual, probably will break down again tomorrow though....

I nearly forgot it was Halloween today so heres a picture of my costume this year:

Awesome huh?

Skys afar

2010-10-28T23:14:00.000+07:00

WOOT WOOT!!!

I got Kaspersky today

I can feel the beat of a good antivirus scanning NiNa

Too bad I still have to reset it.....

Every time I think about it, I cry a little inside

Prolly because all the downloads I've been doing about key finders

Yeah thats probably it....

I"M SO SORRY NINA FOR MAKING YOU SICK

NINa refuses to load ControlDeck

2010-10-26T10:44:00.001+07:00

Now NiNa has a virus, can't open control deck nor DxDiag... Dayoom

70 lucky number 70

2010-10-25T22:16:00.002+07:00

Blog number 70!!!!

My mouth is ripping, it hurts like hell...

I was just going to watch Life as we know it

Just finished english movie,

ITS RAINING LIKE SHIT

AND ITS FLOODING TOO!!!!

I'm so damn lucky I didn't go to school today :3

Trip to the small tiny island off the coast of mainland Asia that goes by the name SINGAPORE (This title is a mouthfull))

2010-10-23T00:40:00.000+07:00

So today I'm in singapore and its apparently 1 in the morning. Sleepy as hell can be

I'll just blog a little tonight, since I've gotta rest for a day in singapore tomorrow.

I'm kinda hungry right now, better hold it off so I can get a little slimmer in the morning

I'm working up late tonight on MSND video commentary, so now, i'm doing the outline

I haven't asked mr. Clint about the time limits so I'm making it 10 minutes flat

Nothing good comes past 12

2010-10-22T01:07:00.000+07:00

Its 12 in the morning and i'm feeling EXHAUSTED

Dunno what to do, I'm just watfching Mivo.TV right now. Not bad for a midnight show....

20102010

2010-10-20T17:35:00.002+07:00

Today I was called the Asshole by one of my classmates. Its really irritating at first, but after a full year being made fun at, all his insults lose their meaning….

Animal I am called, then animal I shall be. There is no other way I can respond to that person’s wants, so then I shall become an animal… And eat his bones

My temper is really high right now, I’m not willing to do anything.

I feel like killing everything, I’m getting visions of a massacre, a complete elimination of the people in my society.

At least the girls at front of the K401 room are calming me down by singing…. (written at 9:48

Now my temper is dissolving… I’m feeling much better now… But I still get the visions of massacre

The lights are off, probably the jump starter died…. I love the dark…

Now the lights are back on…

At least Lybi is still talking about warcraft, that’s a good sign.

Blogging @ school

2010-10-19T11:17:00.024+07:00

Its tuesday today. And I'm bored in math, Im supposed to make some exercises, but I'm done with 5 of em. so I'm' bored.......

Listening to the teacher now

looking at the clock....

Heard kids walking from the gym building.

Now Mr. Grant is explaining about 'mathematical magic'

still bored....

I've somehow changed my blogging style to...well, this..... Its kinda weird and makes my blog bulky.... its like my diary that I make once every ten seconds of blogging time... Bulky see?

I should stop blogging mow and just pay attention, theres only 5 minutes left anyway

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Now Its It time for ITGS, we're learning about Database, Data ware house, and Data Mining.....Kinda confused but I kinda get the hang of it.

As you can see, I am using high lights... dunno how this happened but I'll just continue typing...
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Roza of the Ashen Verdict

2010-10-17T22:44:00.001+07:00

So today I did nothing but played wow, so much that my character got the ashen verdict title... what a waste of time

and now my internet is being a complete bitch and I cant control it. FUCK YOU INTERNET!!!! I cant even complete a single battleground

and it disconnects again....

and again....

and again.....

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

?

FUCK FUCK FUCKFUCK FUCK FUCK FFFFFFUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKK FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

AND AGAIN IT DISCONNECTS!!! one more time and I'm resetting the wireless

and now server restarts for 2 hours.... GREAT.. none till tomorrow

Huntard Gunship

2010-10-16T18:13:00.000+07:00

Damn, IDGS is having a maintenance.... That means no WoW till who knows when....

I finished Prototype today. Fun game, hard boss.... GOOD ending, and the ability

Prototype Archetype Type

2010-10-14T23:31:00.000+07:00

So today I met with Mrs. Judy during period 4. we just talked.....

I dont really feel like writing a lot today, dunno why, i dont ask questions.....

We practiced the BI poem musicalization, it sucked....

NiNa of the Republic of Gamers

2010-10-13T13:58:00.000+07:00

Using NiNa or Lynn right now, typing with her is quite nice, the buttons are light and look like mac's buttons....

it seems bringing NiNa to school really got people's attention, Carl says NiNa's a ripoff, i say NiNa's a masterpiece.

So now i'm waiting for melanie to finish her work in the mall, while i'm in mr. Tris' room

I played warcraft for a few minutes, tried pvp, and logged back off.... Its just not the same.....
I need AMPM

Today was relatively a good day, but i forgot to hand in two assignments for history and english.... T.T

Typing with NiNa is really nice, its like pushing buttons in the air. !!!

Alien Invasion: Project NiNa

2010-10-12T13:48:00.000+07:00

So today will be NiNa's coming!!!

OOOOOHHH I can't wait!!!

Alien invasion: Prelude

2010-10-10T22:34:00.000+07:00

Dunno if this is good news or bad news...

Ye Olde Lappy hath exhaust

But then I'm gonna get an Alienware M15x... so dunno if this is good news or bad news

i know what some may be thinking, i may be a snobby rich kid who can afford a laptop after the old one breaks down...

i'm not....

In fact, I need an Alienware.... or at least its specs, to continue designing 3D models
and gaming.... of course

ooh, how I wish alvin could read this, i'll tell him,
"I got rid of HiNa"

"But then I got Lynn"

I'm actually sad to say that this will probably be my last blog post in HiNa
and then start using Lynn, or NiNa

I'll explain briefly about the Namberz system that I invented

The system contains 4-5 letters in simplified japanese numbers each to specify a type of machine or electronic
these are the last two letters
--Hi = *Empty*
--Ni = *Empty*
--Sa = *Empty*
--Yo = *Empty*
--Go = Television
--Ro = Cars
--Na = laptops
--Ha = Desktop Computers
--Ku = Printers
--Ze = Computer Externals (mouse, hard disk)

The first two letters is the number of 'editions' of that specific electronic or basically the code number

Hi
Ni
Sa
Yo
Go
Ro
Na
Ha
Ku
Ze

so basically

HiNa should be my first laptop
NiNa should be my second
SaNa should be my third
YoNa should be my fourth

So theoretically if you include two of my parent's laptop, It should be my fourth laptop therefore NiNa should be correctly named YoNa. But i wont count my earlier laptops, they were prototypes for me

Woot WOOT

2010-10-08T13:48:00.000+07:00

WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

I actually won first place on the 1500m race!!!! though the opposition wasn't too much of a challenge...

I am exhausted while typing this, i'm using my last bits of strength in just pushing some buttons.

I also won third place in the 400m sprint... It took a lot outta me.

Period Square of cube root eight

2010-10-07T10:54:00.003+07:00

WOOHOOOO!!!!!

I GOT A 7 IB SCORE FOR MATH!!!! My dream is getting closer with this score!!!!

OK so today I'm blogging from Mr. Eric's study hall. ITs quite cold here and i'm quite bored.

My legs are still in pain and my kneecap is still hurting every time I bend it.

Its period four right now and i am bored

Now what to do, what to do......

I'm reading Blassreiter-Genetic right now, its kinda like a mixture of Ecchi and Action. My type of comic!!

Ok... maybe too much ecchi, BUT I STILL LOVE IT!!!

Darkmoon Card: Greatness

2010-10-05T11:08:00.000+07:00

GUREITO!!!!!

Learning new stuff in math right now as I write.... being a dumbass and not learning math...

we're learning Coordinate geometry right now, and I'm not listening....

All i see is Grant trying to teach, and the girls listening, and some of the boys. But Wilson, Gilbert and Andwer just keep talking... and I'm just blogging here....

Bored as hell and only 1,2,3.... 15 minutes left of class time....as i type

Now that I've calmed down

2010-10-04T23:01:00.000+07:00

Now that I've calmed down, and Warcraft is no longer lagging, I'm actually gonna blog something long here
then again.... no

I've finally decided to buy an Asus ROG G53 laptop.... when it comes out
IT GOT 3D GRAPHICS, WHY THE HELL WOULDN'T I BUY IT!?

but thats not all, it got superior graphics, a nice cooling system. and its only in a 15.6 inch packet.

Paul says that it will probably be released during december or january, so i'll probably just wait rather than buying an Alienware M15x

Could you imagine playing WoW with 3D pop ups!? IT. WILL. BE. EPIC!!!1

thats it for now

Theory of Nothing, LoL wut?

2010-10-04T22:19:00.000+07:00

I"VE BEEN TRYING TO PLAY WOW, BUT MY INTERNET IS FAWKING SLOW

thats all for today

iTea Gee Ass Class

2010-10-04T08:33:00.000+07:00

Dayoom, I got a 15 out of 60 in ITGS class test...

Yasha Gurren

2010-10-03T23:16:00.001+07:00

My symbol, created from TTGL's logo, apparently my favorite symbol that I use...everywhere. Once I get a new laptop, I'm changing my favorite symbol

Two times the charms

2010-10-03T23:13:00.000+07:00

So I finished God Of War today, Chain of Olympus... IT ONLY TOOK ME A DAY TO FINISH!!!......Lame...Its a 4 worthy in the Gaming IB score.
1 Point for Storyline
1 point for Graphics
1 Point for Arsenal (weapon)
1 Point for Difficulty
0 points for Length
0 points for Online rating over 8
and 0 points for Creativity

Well, whaddaya expect? its a blasted PSP game. My scores are according to me, you can go play it if you want

GoW:COO Finished in a day.... Lame

2010-10-03T22:54:00.001+07:00

Great, I blogged once and now i'm supposed to blog again. Apparently Blogger refused to compute my divide by zero theory

What a long time it has been

2010-10-01T14:57:00.000+07:00

Its been quite a while since I blogged here, too much stuff on my hands, including WoW gaming.... Its ITGS class as I write this right now, and I'm supposed to be making a portfolio. But I'm blogging instead....

I changed my Blog name from VICTORY OVER ME, to DARKNESS OVER ME... This is the path that I chose

Darkness over me suits me better, since every time it appears, I always get head aches like a knife running through my head. Gonna change my pic to my Yasha Gurren symbol again, suits me better....

Alvin's been a snob about my path, why cant he just leave me alone and die peacefully?!

X-Ms

2010-05-04T21:59:00.003+07:00

They're here again..... DAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMNNNNNEEEEEDDDDD

This time its much worst... I failed english and I need to get a perfect score on the test. My math sucks and I need to get another perfect. BI and the rest ALSO suck, so I need to get 5/7 for the rest.... School life is too demanding....

but i guess I CAN DO IT!!! CMON ME, YOU CAN DO IT!!!! BELIEVE IN ME WHO BELIEVES IN YOU!!!!! YOU WILL PASS!!!!

Goodbye

2010-04-12T20:15:00.002+07:00

Here today gone tomorrow
Stricken with pain, grief and sorrow
All my hellos and all my goodbyes
could not make up for all the sighs

Kingdom Earth, Ironic 70th post

2010-03-20T19:10:00.000+07:00

Thou art strong and mighty in thy glory
The title of ‘our home’ Thou art worthy
Home that thy are, for thy majesty’s sake
Both of thy own king and queen give or take

Of controlling forces of space and time
Yet thou art far from the years of thy prime
A million years worth of gifts and turmoil
Above thy old and peaceful pure bred soil

A kingdom of which that owns queens and kings
And animals of the fins and the wings
The greatest treasury that could have worth
An infinite cost… That, is Kingdom Earth

X poem, Xynda's Grief

2010-03-17T08:43:00.001+07:00

Two thousand years, she has fought with her heart
Her heart was not weak, and her light was strong
Yet, after her battles were near its ends
She could no longer bear her painful loss

She could no longer hold back her sad tears
Her eyes could no longer hold back her grief
Her heart was strong, yet her grief was too great
She had lost her one and only loved one

Xynda’s tears would flood the dark battlefields
Her cries could be heard in the broken world
Her sorrow and grief and her cries and tears
Only for her loved one who died in war

In the warzone, where fate’s eyes have turned to
The only place where blood and tears are shed
The souls who have joined, Have moved on from there
The souls who have not, remain in sorrow

This is her sorrow, her grief due to war
Because of the war, she emptied her heart
Now her world has crumbled, and so her heart

Elemento De Noctis

2010-03-07T20:08:00.001+07:00

Element of the Night, Darkness. My way and my path of life.

I've been ranting continuously ever since I found out that the Dark is actually light in a different form. So I made my "E" poem Elemento de Noctis:

Darkness was created with the land
The dark one stretched out his old gloomy hand
Yet not a soul is willing to go
In darkness you reap, in darkness you sow

Darkness is one of the light
It shines its energy out day and night
Yet nobody trusts its presence
Due to human fear towards its essence

The dark is never evil
From the beginning it is good
Yet from the beginning it is misunderstood
As both light and dark are mutual

The dark cannot exist without light
Just as day could not end without night
The path of life that nobody has taken
The path of life that I have awaken

Ode to the world part one of WonderousWorld

2010-03-04T18:30:00.000+07:00

Human words cannot express your beauty

Even ‘Epic’ won’t be enough, I guarantee

Though you are quite spherical

And your resources drive humans hysterical

To me I see

A world with endless clarity

On your Land

Oh so grand

I see trees and the grass

All growing by the hourglass

Along with humans and species of fauna

Across the segments of magnificent Terra

The clouds way up there

Never looked oh so fair

The clouds of thunder

Looks as majestic as ever

What is lightning I say?

Get to close and die you may

Across to yonder view

The horizon acts like a glue

To the sky and to the sea

It is all so beautiful to me

Under the ocean is a world of blue

Where the air you breathe is absent

Go deep enough and say ‘Good bye’ to light too

Over there the world is different

But the beauty down there is beyond wonder

For some have not seen beyond yonder

The Land, the sea, the sky

Oh so low and so high

So large and magnificent

Looks so young, yet so ancient

So majestic for millions of years

So many happiness and so many tears

There is nothing more that I could have hurled

But only one ode to the world

Sonnet to The sky, Part two of WonderWorld

2010-03-04T18:26:00.001+07:00

Oh how wonderful is the sky
Like a cloth in light blue dye
By day the clouds decorate it
And by the great sun it is lit

Changing by day and by night
Truly a magnificent sight
At dusk the sky stands gallantly
With the sun setting beautifully

Do not fear, small child
As the sky at night is not wild
With the moon shining oh so bright
And the stars giving heavenly light

By the night or by the day
To praise the one above I try
There is nothing more I could say
Than a single sonnet for the sky

Little lost and unfound

2010-03-01T21:22:00.003+07:00

And so once again, I lost my laptop to the teachers. But in that Time I did finish another Gundam and made more poems.

Words from the Warzone:

Sweat runs down my body
For months I have spent
But my body, is still not ready
For days in a tent

Today is the day
The time is right
There's no other way
It is time we fight

This is war, my friend
At time where we could end
So pick up your gun
As we march under the setting sun

The truth is difficult to bear
This is no children's lie
Life in a war is not fair
For today our brothers may die

So never give up, my brothers
This field of battle is our stage
We are the leading actors
And so forth, our names shall never age

And then theres one of my first joint poems, Verses of Vishaka

I see in a candle that I light

Shining through the darkest night

I see birds on the tree I planted

Singing a tone, all are enchanted

I see clouds in the sky I paint

Pure white without a taint

But I feel you in the heart I live

For you, my all I give

She used the odd numbered lines in her Facebook. and I worked my magic touch (lol)

Guard down

2010-02-25T11:49:00.003+07:00

So then, today feels pretty special. I had a math test and I'm actually somehow confident that I'll pass it. Yes the questions were hard, but somehow not that alien to my mind. So i did make it, three fourths of the whole test. Now as I type, its BI time and apparently Fortinet is kinda down for today, pretty special right?

I made a poem, for Pak purba today, since he's leaving next week:

A poem for Pak Edward Purba:

Math is simple easy and beautiful

But requires precision to be careful

Math extended with the best teacher

Could not feel any easier

Your math questions are challenging

Pretty hard, but very exciting

You teach us to understand

The knowledge that is within your hand

Though you may be with us no longer

I believe that our math is stronger

We will miss your classes

May you be praised by the masses!

Pretty much a short poem, but its available.

I did find a glint of talent in poetry AND I LOVE IT. as many can see, my previous posts are poems, 'The Arcberus and how to slay it' is a reminiscent to Lewis Carroll's poem, The Jabberwocky (Which lucky people of 10.2 get to analyze). Its one and a half page long, and I've been getting lots of positive feedback. Speaking of which, HiNa cried again today. My laptop is apparently confiscated for an attempt to show The Arcberus poem during devotions time. THANK YOU SO MUCH IBU BERNIA!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been feelin down these past few weeks because when I'm about to play DMC or Artonelice, I keep on playing on AA or just plain surf the internet from my laptop. Luckily I've finished reading today's Naruto and Bleach, so I'm fine till next week. Now that my Laptop is gone, and HiNa is now reuploaded to the internet, I can just relax and play Devil may cry in peace. :)

Back to my poems; I'm renaming some of my older ones like Ode to the world into Wonderous World. Just to match the first letters. Doesn't it sound cool? I mean, I'm kinda following Patapon on this like 'Aria of attack' or 'March of Mobility' it sound kinda nice and has that Poetic feeling with every name. I can't really wait to show miss Kara or Mr. Joel my Arcberus poem. I wonder what they'll say....

Heres the copy of The Arcberus and How to slay it:

Fangs that bite out metal

Claws that rip the fabric of space

Eyes sharper than that of evil

as though this being could all erase

Be wary, my friend, of the Arcberus

Whose glare would bring the devil to a chorus

Fearful is he who meets of such beast

For the glare stretches west to east

Its skin as fully covered with hellish scales

Slashes from the Excalibur would definitely fail

For there is nothing in the universe that is harder

Than that of the Arcberus' leather

Hellfire drips from its jaw

As though hell is its gaping maw

Heat and flames hurled out like a fountain

As one drip may burn a mountain

Its size, my friend, is nearly godlike

With its horns as though a heavenly spike

Its size dwarfs all other peaks

Its length is colossal, from its tail to its beak

Wings as though great blades

Stretching as far as Hades

Bringing winds that ceases all living

The winds that kill as they are blowing

The Arcberus, the greatest of the titans

Bringer of Destruction to all the humans

Can only be slain by the Darkness

Take to note the following chorus

The first forged is the Tears of Archadia

That would extinguish the Arcberus' flames

A blade of ice colder than the tundra

That would freeze any fire it claims

The deathly stare of this beast

That would glare from west to east

Only with the Aegis of Aeons

You can turn its eyes to bronze

The great wings that of the Arcberus

The extensions of immortal Icarus

Strike it with the Bow of Blood

And It shall be forever grounded

The Arcberus' Jaw

Hell's door, the gaping maw

Seal it with the Reaper's Scythe

Slash it with a deathly writhe

Though its scales are as of Adamantite

Pierce it with the Maelstrom Pyrite

Who's bullets would jump through dimensions

and would open the scales as though its curtains

The Arcberus shall now stagger

Here you must pierce it with a dagger

The Dagger of Fate, as I liked to call it

The killing dagger, that is moonlit

You see, my faithful friends

The immortal Arcberus has its ends

Search far and wide, my faithful fellow

Or you shall be in eternal sorrow

And so this very poem ends like so

The blade, scythe, shield, gun, dagger and bow

The weapons to end the dreadful Arcberus

Seal with faith, and their hero's victorious

I'm guessing somethings wrong with my right arm today, since the Bicep- shoulder section keeps twitching as I type, and its not looking so healthy.....

The Arcberus (Reminiscent to Louis Carroll)

2010-02-24T23:10:00.000+07:00

Fangs that bite out metal
Claws that rip the fabric of space
Eyes sharper than that of evil
as though this being could all erase

Be wary, my friend, of the Arcberus
Whose glare would bring the devil to a chorus
Fearful is he who meets of such beast
For the glare stretches west to east

Its skin as fully covered with hellish scales
Slashes from the Excalibur would definitely fail
For there is nothing in the universe that is harder
Than that of the Arcberus' leather

Hellfire drips from its jaw
As though hell is its gaping maw
Heat and flames hurled out like a fountain
As one drip may burn a mountain

it's size, my friend, is nearly godlike
with its horns as though a heavenly spike
It's size dwarfs all other peaks
Its length is colossal, from its tail to its beak

Wings as though great blades
Stretching as far as Hades
Bringing winds that ceases all living
The winds that kill as they are blowing

The Arcberus, the greatest of the titans
Bringer of Destruction to all the humans
Can only be slain by the Darkness
Take to note the following chorus

The first forged is the Tears of Archadia
That would extinguish the Arcberus' flames
A blade of ice colder than the tundra
That would freeze any fire it claims

The deathly stare of this beast
That would glare from west to east
Only with the Aegis of Aeons
You can turn its eyes to bronze

The great wings that of the Arcberus
The extensions of immortal Icarus
Strike it with the Bow of Blood
And It shall be forever grounded

The Arcberus' Jaw
Hell's door, the gaping maw
Seal it with the Reaper's Scythe
Slash it with a deathly writhe

Though its scales are as of Adamantite
Pierce it with the Maelstrom Pyrite
Who's bullets would jump through dimensions
and would open the scales as though its curtains

The Arcberus shall now stagger
Here you must pierce it with a dagger
The Dagger of Fate, as I liked to call it
The killing dagger, that is moonlit

You see, my faithful friends
The immortal Arcberus has its ends
Search far and wide, my faithful fellow
Or you shall be in eternal sorrow

And so this very poem ends like so
The blade, scythe, shield, gun, dagger and bow
The weapons to end the dreadful Arcberus
Seal with faith, and their hero's victorious

Bass of Blood

2010-02-24T18:31:00.001+07:00

Blood, blood, blood.
Oh joyous thee the water of life.
Filled with happiness, joy and strife..
I praise to thee oh joyous water.
My kind hunts and hunts to sought her.
Thou art a blessing to my people.
Such beauty even in a ripple

Blood, blood, blood
Thy color is dyed crimson red
From human toes to human head
Truly a delicacy for my kin
Though we know that it is a sin...

Aria of Archadia

2010-02-24T18:20:00.000+07:00

I love thee oh thy land
In whom, has given a helping hand
Perfection of beauty
Men must fight to search for thee

For beware,my son, what lies beyond
A perfect land forgotten by time
Of a land you may grow too fond
Where poison may turn to harmless wine

A country of which where nothing is wrong
Where all women and children sing a joyous song
A song of their only yet greatest land
Where beauty is as many as sand

The weather is fine unlike a desert
Nor as cold as the tundra
Lukewarm as though a perfect art
In a land called Archadia

Rhapsody of the Reaper

2010-02-16T23:41:00.001+07:00

I will be leaving shortly, only to return
I shall bring chaos and your hearts I will burn
Your hearts and life means nothing to me
I will depart no matter what, can’t you see?

Though you may weep for my sake
Even if it’s more than you can take
I will be with you no longer
For my life, death’s hunger

As I fall to the abyss, never to see light
I would not run, yet I would not fight
Embracing the darkness that stands before me
I choose to be Death himself with a great glee

Now as the Darkness slowly feeds
I begin to reap of its glorious seeds
Planting one in every man’s heart
Aesthetically like a work of art

Now with the touch in my hand
The touch that would turn flesh into sand
With every life ready to be taken
Now sit quietly, as I begin to awaken
As Death himself, and souls I reap
Be wary, or I might put you to sleep

formspring.me

2010-01-28T19:54:00.001+07:00

Ask me anything, the art of being bored http://formspring.me/Jayarazo

New years Resolute

2009-12-29T23:34:00.008+07:00

Wow, this year's gone fast, it just felt like time was in a rush. It was January yesterday, and apparently, January in less than a week. Lots have happened this year, lotsa friends. But most of all, I finally gained the courage to confess to someone ^^. I just had a Meditation camp a few days ago, and it made me thought of a good excuse to continue blogging for life. Apparently, I just started it this year, many gaps in the middle of each posts, but hey, I'm just getting used to it.... Ok then, where to start.....

Firstly, My Family

Secondly I'd like to thank my friends at school. Alvin, Matthew, Bagas, and some other guys (and girls) for supporting me throughout this year. I'd just like to say thank you so much for what you guys did for me, I hope I did back to you guys seven fold, as my favorite quote (When Life gives you, return it sevenfold). I wont be here for long, but I hope you all enjoy your lives and live happily. I'd like to confess to one person that I love her this end of the year.

Thirdly to those who i've met once and never met again. You guys are basically neutral to me, but I pray that all of you be happy for this year

Fourth is for the people that I love-less... Like Wilson Sukartin (If you're reading this, now you know that I hate you)

6 Days of Meditation, Final days of Two-o-Nine

2009-12-29T22:38:00.003+07:00

Buddhist Reborn Meditation Camp is awesome, and as we indonesian-gamers say it: "GG" (). It was friggin awesome, I get to feel Recharged both in physical and Energical. You could say it as a yearly recharge on my mental, and spiritual batteries. 37 people joined in, and not a single one has their name forgotten from my head. I met old temple-workmates and new friends that I never knew. The melancholy of the first few days of 'Noble Silence' was put to an epic close by a session by one of the certified trainers of Bali Usada (Advertisement redirects here ==>http://www.baliusada.com/). There's nothing like meditating after a hectic year of 2009. After the 'Silence' broke, the first few words were screams and shout, and a happy birthday to one of our fellow participants of the Meditation course, Natalia, who had her birthday just the night before. Once again, the shouts of joy and laughter fill the air of our Puncak Resort Villa. Ping-pong -ers started to play again, the billiard re-opens for its business past 9 pm (after our last meditation session of each day).

I met many people, including a senior who has a dream of Animation, similar to me. Li'l William who had his nickname changed to 'Little Buddha' after the 'Games' Session midday on the fourth. My Mind getting cleaner and clearer from all the darkness, hatred, anger, etc. That I built up over the year, mostly from two very 'special' people at school. Now it has turned to basically RAW ENERGY (LOL, and Chakra energy too). Buddhist Reborn is now so far, the best organization that I'm joining. Nice activities, awesome vision n Mission, but most of all; Great friends...no... Brothers and Sisters in Dhamma.

I cant wat for the next one guys (to fellow workmates), and to all who read, to all who see... You have missed one of the best activities brought to you by Buddhist reborn!!! But do not worry, There is still next year, and I assure you, it will be improved every time its planned. We are a Buddhist Group, so others who are not may join in Bali Usada, a much more Universal meditation service that is all year round. I'm planning to join with the adults next year. What could possibly be wrong about that!? I'm trying to encourage some Buddhists to join us next year, so STAY TUNED AT OUR FB ACCOUNT

"http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1728053796&ref=ts"

Happy New years and exciting new experiences up ahead. Whatever beings there may be, weak or strong, without exception, long, large, in the middle, short, seen & unseen, near & far, born & seeking birth, May All beings be happy

I am Jayarazo, the story of victory. Born in this lifetime as Andy Yudosaputro, Hope all have a safe and happy life in 2010. For it is difficult for one to become human, and more difficult to be born in a time where the Universal Laws still exist and rechanted every day.

SSHB (Semoga Semua Hidup Berbahagia-May All be happy)

Countdown

2009-11-24T22:37:00.002+07:00

My minds really unstable these last few days, hoping a I could just lay down and rest for a while. If only people would stop asking me to release my temper, I wouldn't be this weary. Probably because I had to do a major reset a few days ago because of one movie. People's minds are really growing into believing and into recreating. I can't let that happen for sure. Somehow writing this blog makes my mind feel more at ease. I guess letting it go is the best thing I can do right now.

I'm not really in the mood to do anything useful these last few days, its really-really annoying that now I'm tired, I can actually feel minor pains. There's gonna be a holiday in a few moments and so far, My mind is catching up. I'm gonna make sure it gets the rest is deserves. But with math tests and a Humanities trial coming up, I don't know when I can rest properly. But at least I get to 'bring the Paine' tomorrow in the trial.

Ah, feeling better right now as I write. I can feel a gap in the sea of my mind. Or is it that I'm drifting off into sleep? My eyes are really heavy right now, but I still got Destech to do. My mom needs her rest for her jurying work tomorrow, my dad needs to continue on his book and my sister is...still doing homework. and I'm blogging here to remove 'disk space.' I should continue on my work... after a few paragraphs into this...

Somethings strange is really going on with me, I'm getting a really big appetite in the last few days, Instinct perhaps? Instinct on failing fatigue, apparently isn't just affecting my appetite, I'm guessing that its also affecting my sense of Humor. I haven't been able to think about any Jayus jokes for Nael. I seriously need to rest, why? My jokes turned from J47U5 disease to 'INDIANA JONES, THE INTERNET EXPLORER.' See how bad it became?!

Magma and Liquid Nitro

2009-11-19T22:04:00.002+07:00

The state of my mind is similar

Inconvenient Truth

2009-11-17T21:40:00.000+07:00

No, this isn't a jayus note.... and its true (Inconvenient is it?)

My family has conducted an experiment about ones mind. To glass jars containing cooked rice. We complimented one jar and insulted the other, both through verbal and mind (this includes talking and/or thinking badly upon it). The results are evident after a week:

The glass jar that we complimented had only a few fungus bits in it.

The Rice that we complimented

BUT, the glass that we insulted is...not looking so good, with fungus and yellowish stuff all around.

The Insulted rice

I can conclude 3 things from this experiment:

1. If you insult others, that person will become much worst
2. If you insult others, your mind will be tainted with strange yellowish stuff
3. Since we used both mind and verbal insults, we do not know which is the worst kind, therefore we are conducting another experiment (6 jars; 2 for verbal, 2 for mind, 2 are left out and ignored)

A month...

2009-11-16T19:37:00.001+07:00

I cant believe it , how a month can actually pass by so quickly and silently

Retreating from the retreat

2009-10-16T21:37:00.002+07:00

3 days, 2 nights... Feels more like 1 day and 1 night. The retreat was great, the best retreat I've ever been in. The hiking trip was a great part of the retreat itself, also marks as the second 'under the rain' (My first was much worst) hike for me. The bonfire was a failure due to rain, but the 'spirit' of bonfire kept on in people's hears, as we light up candles inside the main room, people telling their stories, and the scent of sorrow and guilt in the air. Rite now, my body is aching and tired from the retreat, and I still can't think of a name to call someone. Ten years of 'Andy Dandy' and I still cant think up a name for her, weird.... I used to be able to nickname people easily, like calling Matthew 'Saik' and Ian S "Peanut," but I can't give a nickname mark for her. What is wrong with me!?

Destiny's Branch?

2009-10-16T21:06:00.003+07:00

The retreat was awesome fun, and I got to communicate with One who was in between. We had a good chat, and he gave me a great deal of memories of the past. Apparently I still don't know my true purpose as the 'Destiny's branch'.

"Humans are strange creatures
they have both a destiny
and purpose in which to fulfill."

"Though their hearts are weak
but deep down in the abyss of their soul
there dwells a light that shines forever."

"Fate could never bind these humans
yet their destiny
is decided by their first breath"

"Physical death may be certain for man
but no death may take their hearts
I have walked over this earth for thousands of years
and not one heart has died"

"Looks like my time
is nearly over,
however, yours has just begun"

Now my question still remains, "What is my purpose?"
These words appeared in my head, as I type this blog, I hold my phone in my left hand, listening to the words that I should have said, the words that I could no longer compose of in my mind. I guess it was someone else.

As I have wrote once here; This blog is based upon my mind, whatever happens in there, happens in here. They are true to both sides and true to me. Its my mind and my mind alone

6000 seconds of disaster

2009-10-12T18:14:00.002+07:00

Sometimes teachers are tough, some are just lame, but a math teacher has their own category. Why do I say this, lets see... We were given 1 period to do a math project, it wasn't that hard but required typing, LODZ OF TYPING

At least the retreat's coming up in two days, planning to bring my DS there, parents are never gonna know what I'm gonna do

Event Of the Year

2009-10-07T22:56:00.007+07:00

Retreat's coming up, again in the start of the year. This is retarded; Usually there is a "Intro" to the year and a "Finishing" of the year. Retreats are good during the "Finishing" period, arranging it in the "Intro" will just speed up the rest of the year. Life is Short...PLAY MORE (Xbox). At least the room placings been debated the night before, so at least we can still have time to play UNO.

My DS is now patched and Hex-Fixed so it is compatible to KH358/2days. Now just to download it......WITH MY EXTREMELY CRAPPY INTERNET. 4KB/SEC!?!? ARE YOU JOKING!?!? Seriously, 200MB in... 1 Day 4 Hours. M-A-D-E-S-U

Athletics day is coming up in 2 days, and I feel like shiit. Hoping that I'll lose a kilo or two by tomorrow to ease up my feet

End once more

2009-10-03T18:15:00.005+07:00

Damn, its that sick icky feeling again after you finished reading a comic series. Its like one of the drawbacks of Manga reading, You get extreme joy, entertainment, and information...Until you see that "Good bye" page from the Author, and a "Thank you, Good bye" from the scanlators. Its like the feeling you get losing something dear to you (or like the feeling you get when you see an epic ending to your favorite tv series), the sick-er the feeling, the better the Entertainment.

The manga finished here was 'Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro' or in english "Demon Detective Nougami Neuro" an AWESOME piece of work by Matsuei Yuusei. Awesome beginning and an Epic ending, 2 things that make up a great manga. I would give it an 8/10 for a score (1 being 'read it if you're interested' and 10 being "READ OR DIE" [lol, a reference to R.O.D]).

To those reading my letter (If any), and like to read comics and manga, this is a Great manga to read.

I'll be continuing my Holiday trip memory text right after this

Day 3: Don't get lost in the Forest

2009-09-28T22:19:00.002+07:00

Day three on the trip, it was much better (the toilets were in Slight of better shape and smell, SLIGHT). Going to the Stone Forest ('Shilin' was the name)was a nice view. The picture guy photo-shops pics too. It is quite nice there, a nice breeze, nice people, Nice food, not-that-nice toilets though, but overall Nice.
Day 3 hasnt much things to do but the forest

Day 1-2 (16/9-17/9): TofuBomb

2009-09-28T22:02:00.004+07:00

Ah the signature Day 1, They say that 'One must begin hard, and end hard.' Well it did, really, Waking up in the morning, going through flights, Checkpoints, tour spots and bus routes only to know That I'll be reaching my hotel at dusk. And so begins day 1.

TofuBomb is a name I made specially for day 2 (day 1 on the tour by means of touring). I mean, even without the sensitive sense of smell I developed, ANYONE (yes, thats all of you) can smell the nearest toilet, from the nearest photo spot. Imagine trying to take pictures with your camera, on a cloudy day... WITH THE SMELL OF ROTTEN TOFU AND PORK IN THE BACKGROUND...Isn't it relaxing?

I guess not, at least the next touring spot is 'less' stenchy. Its a cave on a mountain, Maybe in it is the more exact term. I had a good laugh here because of the Cautions signs... "Caution Sliding Not to Fall." I understand it, I just don't get what it's saying. Overall I had a pretty good time here, and I learnt a lesson on the first day in China

"IN CHINA, ITS RELAXATION, WITHOUT RELIEF"

Try to stand the smell of urine and Tofu while you've gotta go, gives you some motivation to hold it till later

I guess this ends Day 1

THIS IS MY GUN, GAN

2009-09-28T21:08:00.002+07:00

I've been thinking about this pic since I was gone, and Made it when I went home, Enjoy^^

[Spoiler=GUNGAN][/Spoiler]

Home again, Gone no more

2009-09-27T22:48:00.002+07:00

HOOOMEEEE!!! Finally back on my hard, bumpy, crappy bed. Its been a week since I felt the steel on my back. Its so good to be back. I was thinking of posting an entry for all the days I was gone, but maybe tomorrow. My back is aching painfully and I need a rest just as much. well then, Good night

Skyflare

2009-09-10T17:24:00.002+07:00

Skyflare, a name we thought of for my eye disorder. It went from bad to worse to day as the 'beast' is let loose today. So i thought to myself, unless the beast is resting, the chains that lock it away may one day be wary from its rampage and fade. I really don't know what to do for the future.

Demon Days once more

2009-09-09T22:49:00.005+07:00

Whats happening to me today?! I'm not feeling well again. Just to remind those that 'not Feeling well' for me means psychological for me. I don't get sick, just sick of life. I've not been feeling well these last few days. So I went to the counselor for advice. I did get good advice though:

Before you start homework, do the one thing you like the most

This advice helped me learn tonight. I read through my time line twice and understood everything. Humanities test is tomorrow and I've just started learning at 10, AWESOME.
I've had 6 hours to work on it, I did get my homework done, but I also finished this:
Yes, I AM bored of warcraft. But the guys back in the forums keep calling me back. But I will be back to warcraft...After its been updated, so yeah, I QUIT WARCRAFT :3

I've read Olen's blog a few minutes ago, she seems to be doing fine. I hope everyone does.

Well, better get to studying

Unanymously Anonymous

2009-09-08T18:47:00.004+07:00

Piccies

2009-09-03T23:25:00.003+07:00

Finally Sinanju's finished, and I've got a new Blog-pic, so happy none of my models broke after yesterday's "Tremor at 2." According to the news from the US, it was a 7.4 on the Richter scale yesterday, just off the coast of Tasikmalaya. I've been informed that around 75 people died at that hour, 74 from the falling rubble, the last one was dragged out to sea. Apparently they've only found around 39. The tremors felt at home were quite nice, a little tipsy, but nice.

I'm learning Bio as I write, tends to loosen up my mind if I let go of all my thoughts. But apparently, all I've been doing for the last 5 minutes is going on facebook and writing this.
BTW; I found one of my creation swords:

I also learnt about a new fact between Malay & Indo.

Malaysia and Indonesia are like siblings of different age, we're the same race of the same people. We just cant work WITH each other

I guess thats it for now, its 11.39 and I need to get ready for the test tomorrow

Legs of Steel

2009-09-01T21:38:00.002+07:00

AHHHHHHH. I CANNOT BELIEVE IT!!!!!!! I'm almost done with Sinanju!!!! once I'm done; I'll have my planned Main Title Picture ready for PSing!!!

Its been a while since I got time to express myself in my blog,

In the meantime, I found this funny pic about Noordin on the web in hopes of cheering up those who read (if they are any), or just cheering myself up

OK, on to life, its been hard these last few days, but at least I've been alive ^^
I should be learning my notes now, better log off quick after a quick WoW session for today

Ouch, My life

2009-08-27T17:47:00.002+07:00

Damn... these last few days are horrible

End of disscussion

One day, one sunday

2009-08-23T17:31:00.005+07:00

Finally, back home from Rancamaya, It's definitely nice to come back from the mountain side, far away from the city. I also feel really tired after today, didn't get enough sleep and had to go running around a hot day. The Sauna was nice though, and my legs are feeling better from the cramp. While I'm doing homework (and writing this) I'm waiting for the pictures of the trip, can't wait to post some here and give this place a little bit o'color.

I've been thinking about a name for when I post things. Should I go with Zozosirazo, Razo or just my plain name. I've been searching about the word 'Razo' on the greatest info giver on the web; Wiki, on it. It meant something like poem. Heres a quote from wiki

A razó or razo was a short piece of Occitan prose detailing the circumstances of a troubadour composition. A razo normally introduced an individual poem, acting as a prose preface and explanation; it might, however, share some of the characteristics of a vida (a biography of a troubadour, describing his origins, his loves, and his works) and the boundary between the two genres was never concrete.

The word razó means "reason" in Occitan. In the chansonniers, the manuscript collections of medieval troubadour poetry, some poems are accompanied by a prose explanation whose purpose is to give the reason why the poem was composed. These texts are occasionally based on independent sources. To that extent they supplement the vidas in the same manuscripts and are useful to modern literary and historical researchers. Often, however, it is clear that assertions in the razós are simply deduced from literal readings of details in the poems. Most of the surviving razó corpus is the work of Uc de Saint Circ, composed in Italy between 1227 and 1230.

There is a complete collection of razos, with French translation and commentary, by Boutière and Schutz.

Biographical explications of poems are not unknown in other literatures. For a Latin example contemporary with the earliest razós see Linquo coax ranis. In a manuscript from Bergamo there is an explanatory Latin rubric preceding the Occitan partimen Si paradis et enfernz son aital by Girard Cavalaz and Aycart del Fossat.

I've finally got a pic for my title, but i'm literally building the new one, I've heard that title pictures reflect should who you are. Then ok; Gundam, Warcraft, and comics

OOUUUUUUTTTTT

2009-08-22T12:50:00.002+07:00

Its saturday afternoon, meetin with my friends is nice, going out on a trip to Rancamaya tonight is even better. Looks like its the last day I'll get Inet before school starts again on Monday.
I seem to picked Group 3, aka Chicken... At least I didn't get tiger... 'Cause we gotta call our group by the sound of our animals.

This is gonna be a tiring weekend starting from later till tomorrow 1800 hours.

My Will:
To he who reads this message,
I apologize that I didn't do my Homework
So please, tell Ibu Elsje:
Bu, wa kgk buat pr ^^a

3K Gourmet

2009-08-20T18:50:00.001+07:00

Its been a while since I posted my last post, my dashboard reads “Last Post: July 11 2009” or something like that. I’m guessing I’ll be using my blog more often to track my PP records. You can say that I’m ‘aiming for the sky’ with my project. So School’s started a few weeks ago. I met some of my old friends and met new friends in the same class. Apparently the teachers grouped me up with Ganes for the 4^th year in a row. I was put in the same class as Gilbert, again. At least he’s MUCH better this year compared to grade 7.

I have 3 new friends in my class. Well, two to be exact, the other was a returning student from china, and my ex-higher-up. Wilson Sukartin isn’t really the guy you’d like to mess with; he’s got the face of an angry gorilla underwater. The first words he has said to me for the whole year were my first insults in ages, lol. If it hadn’t been for him, I would have forgotten what its like to be pissed off. Its like he just hates me and me alone. Great, just 3 weeks into the year and I already have an arch enemy, AWESOME!

Then there’s Nikki and Nadine, Both cam from the same school, Regina Pacis (Spell check please). Both seem nice, no wait…Scratch that, Both ARE nice. Compared to Wilson there, these two are like ANGELS (just like everyone else).

You might be wondering about my title for today's post, 3k Gourmet, its for the luck I had today. I bought white rice at pangansari for 3k. Then the guy gave me some chicken thats worth 12k total. So basically, I paid 25% of the original price to get my lunch ^^a. It was good with just mayo and some chilli sauce, but the guy gave me extra

I guess thats it for now

Indonesia(Subscript)Beta 64.0

2009-08-17T20:00:00.003+07:00

Its that time again in a year. It's Indonesia's Independence day once again. I was hoping for some fireworks by Noordin today, but I guess I was hoping too much. Theres nothing like the sense of nationalism today. Game Master Davion put up a HUGE event in WoW, scourge invasion, endless hours battling and spamming, or at least for a full day. And so we did...Yelling out 'MERDEKA' once every ten minutes, for 12 hours...
Here you go, celebrating 64 years of independence, with 64 things I did today

1. Waking up at 3
2. Sleeping again at 3:15
3. Waking up at 6
4. Opening detik.com for the news
5. Looked at MSN for new mail
6. Went to facebook
7-58. Played WoW
59. Did Homework
60. Watched the news on TV
61. ReChecked Facebook
62. Looked at MSN for new mail
63. Opening Detik.com for MORE news
64. Went to bed

lol

Wow

2009-07-11T23:28:00.001+07:00

I'm not talking about warcraft, Just that I'm surprised to get a follower. I'ts not like i'll type even more, just surprised thats all

THE RETURNER

2009-07-11T22:53:00.000+07:00

Man, its been ages since I actually blogged, a lot has happened. Apparently my parents are throwing me with all sorts of roadblocks on my road to gaming. Top Holiday and a camping with BR. Top holiday was fun and I learned lodz of stuff. A full week with people whom I don't really know. After a week I somehow fell in becoming a favorite with everyone. I've met really fun people like Ryan (MR. AXE), Max, Oscar, Ino and many-many others. This is probably my first blog about my friends.

I learned to cope with the sun during Top Holiday, and got over my fear over pain the tuesday just after it. I'll stop here, for no questions.

BR camp just finished today, 2 hiking sessions on 2 days. My legs aren't cramping, my hands are, probably from before...

Back from Camping and WoWing once more, lots of my guild members are disbanded, TK isn't looking to good these last days.
Well I guess thats enough for today.

Jiayou-nara

Sunny day

2009-05-31T15:36:00.000+07:00

Ah Great, After spending a whole day playin WoW yesterday, my minds pretty much fresh. You might ask; Why am I not playin WoW today? Thats because I CANT LOG IN. And it seems other people can't either. So I guess I just blog something here.

WoW is an addictive game

(A Screenshot of our victory poses after a 5 man 'Attumen the huntsman' Raid)

there is no internet RPG game that compares to WoW. Except the fact that I can't log in now... thats all...

2 left, 1 day to go (Epik Phail day)

2009-05-29T00:45:00.000+07:00

Sweet! 3 tests finished, two left. I'm still a little bit scared of the math grade, but somehow relieved to see that the BI and the Science test to be so easy. The science exam was the best, our teacher mistakenly put the answer sheets in the packet with the questions........Epic Fail......... It was awesome, first ten questions are answered^^. One day left till WoWing all night is available.

We discussed future quest for next week. Workshops all day and 2 field trips. The messed up thing about this is (I mentioned this thrice to my friends back at school) that I remembered choosing to be a nanotechnician. Yet I was 'thrown' to Financing and Visual Arts.

..........Fail...........

As I recall, I chose music for this year. I have no Idea how I was sent to vis-arts. So i'll see what vis-arts have in store for me.

2 exams left, memory WILL BE TESTED. English will be a close reading exam for 2 hours. All we have to memorize are the literary terms. Humanities will be the ultimate test, memorizing every single thing possible that we have learnt this year; Propaganda, Urban development, Colonialism, ME/LEDC, etc. and their meanings.

As I would say: "The Epic battle is in sight."

The nightmare has passed

2009-05-27T12:03:00.000+07:00

Finally, math exams are passed. Now I need to wait for the scores, I think they're pretty much bad. I got cast out by a few friends today. I don't car though, I just write it here. Science test and BI test is coming up tomorrow. I've heard that it science isn't really a big of a deal as math. But still...I need to prove that I can get a high mark. BI is quite irritating, I've gotta do the same thing on BI as I do in English, I've got spoilers from my teacher today that it will just be analyzing a passage, that won't be that hard, I'll study for it tonight.

I feel more solitary today, don't feel like being with the others. So I locked myself inside a video room, in attempts to get out of distraction and study for Science Exams. Its really nice and quiet here. I can barely hear any sounds except for the ones coming from outside. I'm reviewing physics as I write this, for a stress relief. Olen would write something about today too in her blog.

Jonathan says today that he'll probably play WoW tonight for a stress relief because the Math test has passed. I dunno if I should too or not, I guess I shouldn't; I made a commitment to myself on Sunday morning: "No WoWing until Friday." I'm gonna keep it and study.

I guess thats enough for today, Tsume will probably write tonight, but I'm not sure. I should be studying now

T Minus a few hours

2009-05-26T17:08:00.000+07:00

Oh Great, the first of exams are tomorrow...morning. I better cram all my math sheets in one night. Personal Projects started today too. I decided not to play WoW COMPLETELY for today, and I'll probably sleep earlier, so maybe Tsume would probably not post anything tonight.

I'm reviewing/reading through ISRs on Math. Seventeen pages on Math.....still not enough... I need to go to a tutor for the uncommons and rare questions that come up during tests like these. I'm in need of a good tutor...

/spit Exams
/spit Exams
/spit Exams
/spit Exams
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Maybe I'll watch 'Is it a good Idea to microwave this?' on youtube right now, to release some stress. But WTH is with Alvin this afternoon, telling me that he has Leeroy Jenkin's battle cry. Then again, it'll be useful or at least come in handy sometime tonight or maybe tomorrow morning...

Now Alex is talking to me...The nudge sound of WC3 echos in my room. Asking for BI notes, ISRs saved the day once again, I hope they do tomorrow. I've got like....4 topics that I need to work with; Bearings, Quadratic Functions, simultaneous equations and Circles. Well, I'd better start studying rite now, I hope I get an easy exam tomorrow; I can have hopes rite?

Morning, Tsume's side

2009-05-26T02:22:00.000+07:00

CRUD...CRUD,CRUD,CRUD. Feather's up late again and now I can't be myself at peace. Its damn hard sharing the same vessel. He's sleeping rite now, AND I"VE GOTTA MAKE HIS HOMEWORK, Dammit. He says to finish his CV thing before I leave. Crud, now i got MORE work to do

First to everything

2009-05-26T02:11:00.000+07:00

its two in the morning, and less than 30 hours to the first exam, I lay on my bed, doing my homework. I got tired of thinking on my CV, so i decided to read a fellow friend's blog. It cheered me up, it made me want to continue working. Then again, I'm tired and sleepy, its been a week since I have my eyes opened past midnight. Its pretty hard to be nocturnal if you're still at school, huh?

I usually keep track of my daily and my future activities in a small leather book, its being borrowed by....I'm not continuing the sentence here, Its classified. So now I don't have my book. So I decided to put my records here, much faster access and there's a search bar on the top of the screen. Its like an electronic Dictionary now....I need to get better examples.

Ok then, Back to work, CV....CV.....We have no Idea what to write. Ms. Kara told the whole class to make one, and apparently....we stopped moving. A single column I have to fill in has the words: Secondary School; the problem is, we're not there yet. She did tell us to 'imagine' we've passed, bachelors degree max, I'll just choose UPH. Maybe I'll stop here for this morning, or i wont finish my work.....